I look into your adorable sleeping face
You stirred and sighed
I hate to leave you in the middle of the night
But that is what I need to do to provide
You don’t know how much I want to rouse you from your sleep
You don’t know how much I want to be there when you wake
I picked up my bags
And I kiss you goodbye
As I gently tiptoe away tonight
Carrying a heavy burden on my shoulders
Heavy as a rock, heavy as a boulder
Off to the airport off to another work trip
For this family for you
So peacefully you can sleep
In the loving arms of your mother
Slowly out of the nursery I creep
They say absence made the heart grow fonder
I rather my presence made you grow to love me more
But I can’t be greedy, can’t ask for anymore
For you my child, are more than I ever had
My child is 18 months old toddler who doesn’t get to see her daddy as much as he would like. His job involves heavy traveling sometimes thrice in a week. Each moment are fleeting, snatched but precious. I can only imagine his heartbreak each time he has to leave her when I can’t even bear to leave her alone for 10mins.
Still, I count my blessings as I know there are fathers (and mothers) out there who have to tear themselves away from their loved ones to go to another country to work in order to feed the family back home. Only to fly back to visit once a year if finance allows. Their pain and heartache can never compare to ours. I have met a lot of folks who need to separate themselves from their loved ones.
One instance where I was chatting with my manicurist the other day. She’s from China, came all the way to Malaysia to find work. Her husband (also from China) is in Singapore working as a contractor. Meanwhile, their two months old baby is back in China with her parents. Her face displayed pride and joy when she shows me photos of her newborn on her phone. The only thing that keeps her and her husband going is knowing that they are saving up for their child’s future. So that their child can get a better education thus increasing his chance for a better future.
Comparing to me being the only parent to my little one most of the time, our anguish is nothing to the many parents out there who has to sacrifice being with their loved ones in order to make a decent living. So I’m very blessed and fortunate to have such a hardworking partner and soulmate to see what he can, for the future of our baby girl. The heavy burden that his family’s needs are on his shoulder, the awful constant traveling and the hotel beds that he spent almost every night in, he never once grumble it is too much for him.
With this post, I dedicated to him and the millions (if not, trillions) fathers in the world who love their children, strive to give them the best environment to grow up in and who silently suffers heartaches for their children.
Happy Father’s Day!
And of course, giving me enough sleep so I don’t walk into another glass door.
For more heartfelt posts to get to know me better, you can dive into these:
5 Surprising Things We Take For Granted In Singapore (I never knew until I live overseas)
Feeling Disappointed At Singapore’s Legal System – An Innocent Child’s Life Is At Stake
Overcoming my Fear of Traveling Solo
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