I didn’t want to bother you but this issue of mine have been on my mind ever since I received the terrible news. It’s a bit of a personal issue here but somehow it got mixed up with my work and it’s eating me out bits by bits. I don’t know what to do!
I am working in an extremely stressful and aggressive company that deals with corporate insurance policies. I am their top sales woman and I am also wearing several hats in the company, a team manager, a trainer and a project manager. I am not complaining about the work load, it is great for me and I know I sacrificed more than 60 hours work week for a great compensation and a comfy nest egg in return.
My dilemma here is just a month ago, during one of the annual doctor’s check up, I discovered a lump. Further checks by my doctor confirmed that I have stage 1 cancer. Now my doctor advised me to schedule operation as well as joined some therapy support group. I know this is my health here and nothing is more important than my health. But until now I couldn’t face my boss and let him know I need to take time off for my illness. My company will see it as a weakness and my job will be in jeopardy, my evil co-workers will be gladly swim in for the extra takings from my profile. I don’t want to lose 10 years of carefully built and cultivated profile gone to someone undeserving. My doctor called me everyday to ask me when would I schedule my operation. I’m afraid I won’t be the same me after the operation and the long recuperating period means I will be out for a long time.
What can I do?
I’m sorry about the news but I know right now what you need is not sympathy but real good advice.
First thing you need to do is to schedule that operation as soon as possible. Don’t wait anymore. Please don’t procrastinate.
What you have above others in the same situation is that you have a tidy sum of money to dip in and a wealth of experience behind you. Look at this from a different angle, you have worked so hard for so long, it’s time for you to take a break and concentrate on yourself. 60 hours work weeks are tortuous on your body. Your clients profile that you are clinging on, they belongs to your company, not yours. If you feel the pinch, maybe you can use your recuperating period to think of starting out your own instead slogging away for others. I believe in you and I know you believe in your own capabilities. Just that this moment is so personal and overwhelming, it’s hard to face the truth, no matter how brave you are.
That is why the second thing you need to do is to reach out for help. Sign up a support group, call your closest friends, tell your family. You need a strong brick wall to lean on now. Do not hesitant or turn away help.
The third step is to approach your HR in your company and evaluate your situation. You have slog 10 years for this company, in return they should have some proper comprehensive insurance plan to cover your medical needs adequately. Before you go to your HR or your boss with the news, seek legal advice from a lawyer, to see if your company can dismiss you based on your illness in your country. That should allow you to plan in advance what are your recourse action should that happen.
Your main focus should be directed at healing yourself. Other areas in your life takes a backseat. Take good care of yourself and the rest will fall into place.