Sometime ago, I did mentioned that I’m starting to write a book about freelancing. My first thought was it should be pretty easy since I already have plenty of articles here lined up for me to massage the data and elaborate and dive deeper into each topic. That should serve as a good guideline for me to complete my book, right? I ended up dragging my feet (or more likely, my fingers) to work on my book.
People who know me for years, knows that I have almost never procrastinate. I always jumped on tasks assigned to me, I always bursting with enthusiasm on any kind of projects. I never say no to a challenge and I love writing. Well, maybe I do sometime procrastinate to get up when it’s a nice rainy day and it’s really hard to get out of bed when I’m all tucked in and comfy.
In fact, the last time I seriously procrastinate was when I am still in school, mugging for my final exams, preferring to surf the TV channels instead of burying my nose into my textbooks. Thank goodness there wasn’t Facebook during that period otherwise I’ll never get any studying done.
Even when I set aside time and sit myself down in front of my laptop, cleared all my distractions, I’ll find myself wander off to answer another email or write another MiddleMe post or to work on my clients’ assignments.
It is not as if I have writer’s block on my book. In fact, it’s the opposite. My brain is filled to the brim with ideas. It’s just so hard to pen down my thoughts. It is almost like I am hearing voices in my head but instead of voices, I hear ideas, one after another after another in full speed, crashing through my train of thoughts. Too fast for me to even pen them down before another idea intrude my first idea and I ended up deleting everything I wrote and starting all over again. Anyone facing the same problem?
I’m not running against any timeline to complete the book but I do want to check it off my list so I can start something else. And I know procrastination is not healthy. I won’t want to start a habit of that. I’ve spoken to some friends and they told me perhaps I hadn’t put my heart down to it. Or maybe I am juggling way too much on my plate right now so it is hard for me to keep my focus on it.
The struggle is very real.
I have my half-assed written work opened on my laptop, always beckoning me to pay attention to it while my eyes keep averting it and my mind making excuses.
So here I am, once again, in front of my laptop, trying to get myself drafting another page of my book and ended up writing this post instead. Hopefully, after this rant, I can go back to completing at least a paragraph before my attention drift off somewhere less importance and procrastination wins the battle once more.
Any suggestions how I chain my legs to my book?
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