I was a habitual gambler. I racked up plenty of debts from the banks and turned to illegal sources like loan sharks when I was desperate. I was spiralling downhill. I have no family or friends to speak of. Everyone abandoned me. They despised me, hated me even. I couldn’t hold a job for more than a month. I was living from scraps to scraps.

The last thing that woke me up was my pet cat who got herself ran over by a truck and I couldn’t even afford to send her to the vet. I had to seek assistance from one of the nearby animal shelter. Seek is not the right word, I practically beg them to save my cat’s life. She’s the only family I had. Sadly, Mija didn’t survive but this woke me up and got me to clean up myself.

This story isn’t about it how I came through. This is about how I made that decision to commit to a better life 3 years ago and still my mistakes come back to haunt me time and time again but I didn’t give up finding a job.

Nothing I can do to keep a job after my probation.

I tried retail for 3 months because I know I am good with people. I may be overqualified (I have a degree) but I was happily working there until my debtors came and harassed the customers in the store twice. My supervisor had no choice but to request for my resignation. I mean I am trying very hard to earn money to pay off these people but they just don’t give a crap how they are ruining the income source that will pay them back.

So I thought maybe I should work behind the scene. I got myself a job at one of the big corporations in their call centre. I was promised that I will be promoted to assistant telemarketing team leader due to my qualifications if I pass my probation period.

With hope, I worked hard, I came on time, leave my workplace late and always hit my target. 5 months into my job, my debtors called into the hotline and made a huge complaint about me. I was out in the streets again. To be fair, the corporation had their reputation to protect and I wasn’t aligned with their image.

One of my ex-colleagues manage to get me a job an hour away from my city and I gladly took it. It’s more of an administrative job and it is not as highly paid as I would like it to be but beggars can’t be choosers so I stuck on to the job for 2 years.

Until again, my past caught up with me. My boss ran a credit check on me and found I had a bad credit. Nothing really to do with my job but he doesn’t want me to handle his books anymore and called me a liar. By then, I had more or less cleared up most of my debt, illegal and legal ones.

I moved on to another job, this time closer to where I was staying. I figured that since I have cleared my debts, I should be left alone by my debtors. I’m not so lucky. I took on a dishwasher job at one of the fancy restaurants.

Me, a degree holder, washing dishes?

But a job is a job, as long as it pays my bills, keeps a roof over my head, food on the table, I’ll do whatever it takes.

One of my previous debtors thought he saw me and started telling my manager how I am a bad egg. Instead of firing me, my manager stood up for me and told me that he doesn’t give a shit to my past as long as I am willing to work hard, I’ll have my job. I cried in front of him. It’s felt so good to have his trust!

To have someone who finally able to overlook my past and give me a chance.

I’m still at the same restaurant today but I’m no longer a dishwasher. I’m an apprentice to their sou chef and I never knew I had an interest in cooking in my heart but I’m grateful for any opportunity. I’ll grab the opportunity with both of my hands and hug it tight.

I just want to tell people that don’t make the same mistakes I did. I regret so much that I lost everything. The only shining thing that comes out of it is that I am much stronger.

For more Whisper stories, here are some that you might be interested in:

Whisper: I’m A Fraudster

Whisper: I sabotaged my one of my staff’s career

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11 replies on “Whisper: Bad Debts Made Me Jobless

  1. No Whispering for me, dear Kally! It’s all exposed in my 33 years of recording it all–the good and the bad, but! It’s a wonderful thing that you are allowing to at least whisper instead of holding on to the secrets that jail so many souls.

    Recognizing our guilt is the number one step to the blissful freedom that we are all in search of. So glad I read this post. So glad to join my brother in the celebration of his restored hope for his future.

    Much love, thia 🙂

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  2. Glad to read that the person persevered and was able to finally to achieve a measure of success. Very inspirational story. Thanks for sharing. Good luck in your future endeavors. You fell down several times and picked yourself back up each time. Well done!

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  3. God has made humanity HIS complementary {Genesis 1: 26-27; Genesis 2: 6-7}

    Our complexity and resilience resembles that of our God. TRULY Astounding!

    Sometimes God permits us to dig such deep holes for ourselves in order that thee darkness will cause us to look UP.

    It is God’s desire for each of us that we DO find His Inner Peace.
    John 14:27 ” [27] Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, do I give unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, nor let it be afraid. ”

    What an AMAZING God we have, and what AMAZING People He Created.

    Thanks Kally, and way to GO! author.
    Patrick

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  4. I am not gambler, but beginning in debt I can talk about. I went into debt consolidation twice. At this stage of the game I am having a difficult time getting a credit card. I am working with a Credit repair expert to clean up my credit report. I now work with a purpose and shop on a budget.

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