*As told to Kally anonymously
I am getting married in a month’s time and I should be happy but I’m not. I am downright miserable and there is nothing me or my fiancé can do anything about it.
You see, I met my future husband in the current company I worked in. He is the nicest and gentlest man I have ever known. Before him, I hadn’t had any luck with love. Because of our company clause that forbids employees to date each other, we kept our relationship a secret. That clause is in the employment contract that we signed when we first joined. God must have watched over us because we dated for 5 years and we were never caught by any of our colleagues. My family loves him to bits and his mother loves me as if I am her own daughter. When I was down with flu, his nana even moved in for a couple of days to take care of me!
Dating in secret was not ideal but we make do. I had to keep my jealousy in check whenever a female colleague openly flirts with him. We placed trust in each other even when he was accused of stealing company’s secrets to sell them to competitors, my faith in him has never wavered.
Of course, my company did not have any proof against the hideous crime but they fired him anyway. He is in one of the 50 people let go because of management’s suspicion of fraud. Yes, the boss of this company is paranoid!
Hence, my dilemma. With him not in the company, I can choose to freely date him. However because of the way he was let go from employment, if I declare I’m dating him, I probably will risk my job as well. With the wedding expenses and the new home coming, I couldn’t take that risk.
So nobody in the office knows I’m getting married and I’m upset about it. Some of my closest friends work in the company. By not including them in my happiness, my wedding is not complete. But if I include them even asking them to keep a secret for me, I’ll be putting their jobs at a risk. Given our boss is such a paranoia, he probably will do another round of firing again and canned us all.
I have to pretend to be all excited and happy about being a blushing bride as I couldn’t burden my fiancé with my thoughts. He’s been under a lot of stress, trying to find work to support the expenses. It’s not easy finding a job that pays him as much as he previously earned.
Additionally, our company refused to give him any references so he is pretty much screwed by them. He has been juggling freelancing gigs and payments hasn’t been constant.
There’s nothing I can do here. In order to keep my job, I need to keep my mouth shut even though all I wanted is to shout through the roof that I’m getting married to the best person in the whole world! Any bride should be able to do that. Thank you for lending me your platform to do my whining.
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